I feel you so much in this, down to the tat and the half retardedness.
When we started living suburbian life I tried to goof of more and let more of my "soft side" if you will show, cuz I didnt want no more trouble, had enough of that shit. But I rather be the retard of the neighborhood than the criminal.
You got a great story Cap, been reading prices of it on this forum for hours. You should write it down, I like your style of writing, you suck people in with that, reminds me of Douglas Adams. Honestly.
I have a deficiency. Patience.
This is the worst part about growing anything, lol, the waiting
Specially this outlaw salad, cuz you cant talk about it with people. This forum is awesome for that.
bro, tell me about it, I watched this place for a year and a half, 2 years. I was a puppy at the window, the one with the grease paint and waggley tail.
so wanted to jump in sooner, but it’s def a welcoming place for everyone, it was liberating not hiding after 22 years
Once I finally went ahead and started to post, best believe the paranoia was there, 100% mitigated by a bunch of super down to earth badass
Growers that shared knowledge and weren’t looking to charge a fee to new growers for info, reasons I hate YouTube because maybe 4-5% actually know what they are doing, have a “exclusive” membership to watch some jackass who has only ever grew herb one way,
My point is, you can’t take any of this shit with you any damned way, always keep an open (The collective wealth of knowledge here is to be commended) while sharing as much as you can to new folks. I jump around a lot of these threads daily to lend a helping false hand. (Clown shit)
And a couple few months down the line, when my inbox had a bunch of people thanking me. It’s super gratifying, especially when they are well read and studied a ton. Been on a mission to stop new homies before they start ph bs, potassium def in the third week of veg bs and of coarse fucking cal mag
so yeah man, patience is hard af but it fades after a while of having the moxie to go fly a kite as opposed to helicopter parenting Theyre plants to death Just don’t be that guy pushing people towards over correcting with ph and throw crazy nutes at their plants not realizing 9/10 they have now the risk of multiple stessors that they have compounded. It’s getting awfully redundant I feel I have a duty almost, these days with these new improvements over led lamp in general. I’m really in it for saving a plant over new comers shortcomings, but I digress, I try to be as helpful as I can and the majority of folks that come through are pleasant to work with and damned well know the deal, don’t embellish, or bs about the grow they are asking help for. “No I didn’t microwave the whole plant capt to decarb so I could sample sooner.” While annoying, i understand pride and what we think is on its way for schwag, a lot of folks still have pride and are unwilling to listen but love their plant . So I teach a calm demeanor too a newb through a methodical process that doesn’t involve scorched earth tactics and learn to communicate with your plants with a new more nuanced approach (saves homies money too) so thank you for the kind words about my writing, o have been told I should write more than a few times. I have some stories man, and patience is a virtue and school is never out. I’ve learned o ton of stuff myself. Though I have a waaaaay thicker skin too, dealing with actual assholes when they suck and keeping a happy environment, because happy environment, happy plant.
Sorry this was interesting ask, it’s a loooong response I most likely have the spell correct Monsteritus chopped up answer.
they would just laugh at what I got going on anyways 
and I'm still waiting. No one is giving their smoke or gummies to children. It is all fear mongering. Now, in areas that are impoverished, chitlins do what they have to in order to eat. That is completely unrelated though.
